Abstract Wish

I'm not sure what I'm searching for.
My mind protecting itself from manipulation.
My heart calls forth an irregular tune,
And I'm left to wonder why...

Since You left, I was able to recollect,
The fragments of my Abstract Wish.
Rebuild the passion I had wasted,
And pinpoint the new moon, as my focal point.

My wings will never again be as pure as they were.
That doesn't mean that I will loose to the shadows.
All it means is that there is no turning back,
No Time to sink below the surface of the pool.

Soon I will take flight to take hold of the truth.
I've distanced myself from it all... I'm not tied down to society
The restrictive past has taught me only to live outside the box.
Outside, where no one else has ventured; no one else will bother me here.

The rush of the transitioning season...
I can feel it pull at my heart, calling it forward.
It wants to show me where my insight fled to,
After that dreaded day the eclipses took it away.

My faith in you is gone, and I prefer solitude.
My faith in humanity fallen into skepticism's palm.
I'm drowning in doubt, I'm surrounded by a warped light.
Who can I deem worthy? Or can I continue to walk alone?

Sitting on the edge of heartache, I cry.
Crying out for a wish to gain the real understanding.
Along with the rain, that won't stop its emotional ravage,
My isolation has been my best friend in this last chapter.

I can't find a tangible source of happiness,
It's not an end result from years of dedication and sticking to the rules.
It isn't the impulsive call of the wind, and it's not the dependability I once casted on you.
It has proven time and time again to come out of a wish.

A wish so subtle that most miss its circannual appearance.
It takes me by surprise every time.
It's mystery leaves me intrigued; its sensuality has me yearning.
I've never experienced anything like this; true euphoria.


§hawntal<3