Crimson Days

I saw this in a dream one day…
The feelings so vibrant, the touch, so real
But when I woke on that misty summer afternoon
I thought of bitter malice, I thought of sticking by the side of distance
I played with ideas covered in a cold, black shield, where ominous chaos thrives
I looked at you and thought to keep myself unfathomable separate
There were times when I thought of flooding my heart with senseless pleasure
I felt like a fiend who had unwillingly seen a harsh light, holding my sword close to my frail heart
Last I checked, though, Karma gave me back hope
It sent out a thank you, because I didn’t give in to the darkness I’d seemed to swarm myself in
I let time and distance take care of me, used the pain to nourish my boggled mind
And I’m not willing to let anyone take me with them to that same place I was once in
I’m freed, I’m flying high and withdrawing from the mangled madness I’ve experienced
I’ll declare my solitude to be true to what I believe in.
Looking into autumn’s eyes, I see the shedding of an emotional year
One with meaningless kisses and mal-intentioned fucks
The cold I once feared is returning, and this time, inspires me to laugh in the face of danger
Now I know what to do, until the next one comes around whose casted away insecurity
Wisdom is bestowed through anguish, and I want this winter to be ready for me
Because I’ve never felt such a sense of power before, not like this!
I’m finally in control again!
Even if times call for colder days, somber moods, and more fiends like me to go on the prowl
I’ve got a new secret weapon to defend against mundane pleasure and societal fixations
Distance, and my dream will eventually see me though all of life’s frailties
I’ll only be victorious, though If I follow the demands of my Will truthfully
But I'll never let go of the lessons learnt, and add to my creative future
Fly on, let autumn have its say this year, and see where the last leaf falls. I think I'm ready!


§hawntal<3